Today while running on the treadmill, my mind started thinking about a situation. My 6 year old daughter, Sarah, is having challenges in school. There have been some red flags raised and lots of testing done to see where she falls in regards to her peers. Although there are other IQ tests and it isn’t a final answer – her IQ was very low along with some other tests. Her visual perception was very concerning as well. I was hoping for answers and solutions but they haven’t happened yet and we still have some other testing for her. As her mom, I want to see her shine and know what an amazing girl she truly is even if she can’t tie her shoes. She is very self aware and I see her struggle, already knowing in 1st grade she lags behind her other friends.
So this morning, I hit the treadmill. I wasn’t even thinking of Sarah and the whole situation but I started dwelling on the results and where the numbers might end up saying about her. Here I was running at steady run, and tears started streaming down my face mixed with my sweat because life isn’t going to be easy for her. She has a long road ahead of her and I want to make sure I make the best decision for her to have the best opportunities in life. I definitely felt the awesome responsibility as her parent. But the song, “Stronger” came on my headphones. I took all that sadness and discouragement and cranked up the speed on the treadmill. My journey to being free and confident wasn’t easy but I want to be an example for Sarah – that she doesn’t have to live below her potential. She doesn’t have to live with what the numbers say. She can and will be a success story too. I finished my run at the fastest I have ever done. I did it in honor of my daughter.
If you have ever met Sarah, she has been through way more than what a little girl her age should ever go through. But she still holds on to her compassionate and sweet spirit. That girl will make sure everyone feels comfortable and will give you her last piece of chocolate to make you feel special. Although schoolwork is tough for her – she is wise beyond her years in what is really important in life. With relationships, with spiritual matters, with moral decisions – I have learned from this young soul. To hear her sing and see her dance is such a delight.
Sarah. My sweet Sarah Grace. You are beautiful from your bobbed blonde hair to your pretty red toes. God placed a special plan in your spirit and He is faithful to complete that work in you. He made you who you are – your strengths and weaknesses. Hold your head up high – find your wings and fly over those insecurites, fears, and doubts. All you have to do is try and do the best you can. God will push you through all those obstacles. I am here for you and will always be your biggest supporter. You got this. Just like I learned, you are an overcomer!
It’s only for a moment you are mine to hold
The plans that heaven has for you
Will all too soon unfold
So many different prayers I’ll pray
For all that you might do
But most of all I’ll want to know
You’re walking in the truth
And If I never told you
I want you to know
As I watch you grow
I pray that God would fill your heart with dreams
And that faith gives you the courage
To dare to do great things
I’m here for you whatever this life brings
So let my love give you roots
And help you find your wings
May passion be the wind
That leads you through your days
And may conviction keep you strong
Guide you on your way
May there be many moments
That make your life so sweet
Oh, but more than memories
It’s not living if you don’t reach for the sky
I’ll have tears as you take off
But I’ll cheer as you fly